Hello, Its Been Awhile

Hello Everyone..

I'm back to my blog. I wasn't sure I wanted to write anymore only because I am just not great at writing. But after much consideration, yes I have decided to continue writing. 

So lets see what has been happening in my life lately. Not a lot to be honest. My dad decided to give up driving and sold his car. He just gets too tired from the former blood clots. So we are down to one car now. I do most of the shopping. My dad still will drive himself to the doctor, but that's about it. 

Also, I am officially registered for school again. I have not been in school for while. And I am excited to get back to it. I also broke down and applied for Financial Aid. I do not know how much aid I will get. But I registered anyway. 

Still have not found part time work. Its so frustrating. But I am still hopeful. I am probably going to be giving up my painting. I have not been very profitable. I have sold a few pieces. But nothing since about a month ago. I sold some Christmas ornaments. It is what it is. Don't get me wrong I love it and I am very good at it. But that's not going to sell paintings. 

I am doing a vlog on YouTube for Live Your Life Like Its Chocolate now. Its just about my life and trying to live a positive life. That is how I want my life to be--happy and positive. No negativity for this gal anymore. It only brings you down. 

Ive been too much living in fear of my own shadow and fear of offending people, fear of disappointing people and not living my own life for me. That stops NOW!! And I am done with fake friends and non existent friends. Friendship is a two way street with me. If you cant meet me half way, then it is time for me to go. I don't do one sided friendships, never have never will. 

As I said on Facebook the other day. I am doing to live my life for ME and if no one likes, well do damn bad. 

The reason I started this blog in the first place was to live a good life, a happy life and be more positive. I haven't been doing much of that in the past and its time for a change. 

Thanks for reading..

Until next time..

Estelle

Another Day

Well, its another day. Got up. Had breakfast. Watched my favorite you tuber Daze With Jordan The Lion. Love his vlogs. He inspires me. 

Went grocery shopping for my dad. Now sitting here writing my blog. 

Thinking of all the things I want to do, need to do to make my life happy and fulfilling. 

I restarted my healthy eating again. I am bound and determined to lose this weight once and for all. Its weighing heavy on my mental state (no pun intended). And it contributes to the pain in my back from my Spinal Stenosis. It will be a slow and steady process. But I am so happy I finally gotten this part of my journey restarted. 

As I stated yesterday I am thinking of starting a vlog myself. Not sure if I want to do a travel vlog or a vlog of my daily life and putting it out there about my weight loss journey. I feel like that will keep me on track. If I put it out there, then I can be accountable in my weight loss. Not sure if anyone would be interested in watching me talk. lol But you never know. 
Ive also started my job search. That's another issue. 

You know what they say "Rome wasn't built in a day." And I have to remember that will all the things I want to accomplish. I need patience and time. 

Thank you for visiting today. Until next time friends...