Today Is A New Day

So today is a new day...

I applied for disability a few months ago due to my Spinal Stenosis. Yesterday I got the notice of my denial. At first, I was "ok well I guess God has a different plan for me". This morning I woke up sad, stressed and afraid of what is going to happen. And I cried.  They based my denial on a job I held 9 years ago. 

But now, I'm like, maybe this a blessing in disguise for me. Prior to this, all I did was lay in bed and watch TV or play games on my cell phone. My life didn't exist. I have sat here thinking is that the life I really want for myself. The answer is NO! 

So now after shaking off my sadness and despair I have made some decisions. I am going to try and go back to work. I have to admit I am scared. I have only had one official job in the past job in the past 9 years. I don't know how long it will take me. But my goal is to work part time and finish my college education. 

This blog will continue. But I also want to start a vlog, as well. The vlog will be different. Maybe a travel vlog. What do you think?

The only thing I know today, at this very minute is that my life has new meaning. It has this new meaning because that is the direction I want it to take. No matter the pain. I need to live the best life I can for the remaining years I have left. To make it count. 

Until next time..